That's all that *likely* stands between us. I say "likely" because it will be another week or so until we have it all confirmed and locked in.
31 DAYS, 9 HOURS...
...til I see you face to face
...til I look into your eyes as you look into mine
...til I can touch you
...til I can hold you
...til I can forever and always call you mine
It's taken forever to get here. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years... SO many years. So many moments lost. I missed your first smile, your first word, your first steps. I didn't get to hold you the first time you fell down or comfort you the first time you were sick. I've completely missed two surgeries. Were you scared? Alone? Was someone there to hold you? To tell you it would all be ok? I missed you first sleeping through the night, your first hugs, your first kisses...
I often wonder what all you understand. I know they've told you about us. I know you've seen our pictures. But you're so very little. There's only so much I really believe you can grasp. And when I stop to consider what we will ask you to go through in just a few short weeks...it nearly breaks me. I don't want to see you scared. I don't want to make you cry. There is nothing beautiful about tearing you away from the only family you've ever known...
It's all moving so fast now. Years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds... Moments are fleeting. There is so much left to do. Your quilt isn't ready, your bed needs fixed, your things need to be organized and put away. You need doctor appointments and dental appointments and speech therapy lined up. We need to schedule post-placement appointments and make meals for the freezer. So many things left to do and it's all flying by in a whirlwind.
Before you know it, I will be there...
...and I will look into your eyes
...and I will take your hand
...and I will stroke your hair
...and I will wipe your tears
...and I will hold you if you'll let me
...and I will tell you every single day from now until my dying breath that you are always and forever mine...
Father, prepare her heart. Prepare our hearts. Let her see us in her dreams, giving her glimpses of forever. Reassure her that she is safe...that she is loved. Allow her to enjoy these last few weeks in her China home...and forever cement these moments to her memory, so she can treasure them always. Give us wisdom in our meeting, that we will comfort her the way she needs it most. Allow our trip, for each of us, to truly be about her, about storing up memories to share with her later, to take in all that we can of her country and her culture, so that they will always be honored in our home. Protect each of us from illness from now until we are all home safe. Bring us peace and focus in the days that remain...until we are finally FINALLY a family of 7, all in one place.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
~Philippians 4:6-7
**We covet your prayers for our girl and our journey. It is coming SOON!!
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