In the Stillness

A lot has changed in the last few weeks regarding our adoption. Many of you already know most of it as I was anxiously requesting prayer numerous times on Facebook! It's been almost surreal having been waiting for YEARS with little to no movement and then to have so much happen in just a two week time frame!

We received word that the little girl we've been following has her file complete! This is HUGE because it means, regardless of the outcome, we will have closure in the next few months. Either we will receive her file, or it will be time to close this chapter and move on--but either way, we will have closure. There will be resolution. But there have been huge strides of open communication, new information that we have that at least keeps the door open to the possibility! Within 48 hours, we learned that her file will definitely go to an agency, the likely agency it will go to is WORKING WITH US in the hopes they can figure out a way for us to receive the file (they'd told us previously they would not do this), and our own agency called and brought up that if we were able to work with the other agency, they totally understood if we switched!! That has been a major sticking point for us as we really, truly love our agency and really don't want to work with anyone else. That being said, our priority is getting our little girl home and if the other agency is able to secure her file and guarantee it would be assigned to us, we would switch in a heartbeat! It's just nice to have that extra load off of having to explain to our agency we wanted to switch. Knowing they fully support us in whatever means necessary to get our girl home is truly a blessing. So now we wait to hear from the other agency as to whether they will definitely get her file and if they will be able to assign it to us! In the mean time we are busy scheduling Dr appts and caseworker visits and paying fees because OF COURSE this all happened at the same time that our USCIS immigration paperwork and our home study need updated! Nothing like a whole lotta crazy all at once!!

But it gives me hope. It gives me reassurance. It allows me to see, to KNOW that God is still in control, that His hand is in the middle of our mess, working, even when we don't see it. I know that in being human, I don't see the big picture, I don't see the end game. So when things don't appear to go my way, when they "take too long" according to MY time frame, I'm tempted to throw in the towel, to call an audible, to just move on already. I think that's when God likes to show off most. When it couldn't possibly come from anyone or anything other than Him. He steps in, shows He's in control, and  "the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:7

Keep praying friends!! We cannot do this alone--we need each of you going before the Father on our behalf! From the depths of our hearts, THANK YOU, for taking this journey with us.